NEVER THOUGHT!

Time is so fLeEting that I never thougHt it's almOst 3yrS froM the time that we broke up and yet here i am...still cAring mOre than u do...that my fEelings 4u still never cease(d)...

Others think such a damN stUpidity buT the hell do i cAre 'coz that's what I'm fEeling.hehehe

Our "Nov.20 to Nov.30,07" is such a crazY thouGht 4 otherS buT dEfinitely nOT 4me...I greatly appReciate and will never 4get those times wherein the feElings are/were muTual...

I learneD to value gambling when it coMes to love...that loving sum1 is nOt as soMething idEal nor coNstant...

Thus,it's soMething u should treasure while it exists...I was and will never be tireD to say that I still cAre...

that I'm still learning to let u go buT I just can't...perhapS soOn buT nOt nOw.

My subCoNscious mind supPresSed all the negative thougHts aBouT you and lift up all the liGhter sidE...that in oNe way or anOther,perhapS u still cAre...perhapS you're fEeling the same way.

I'm 4ever grateFul for u taught me the insurmOuntaBle and indEscribAble magicAl fEeling of TRUE LOVE...How i wish you're fEeling the same way buT I'm toO afraid to ask u 4 i hate the fEeling of being rejecteD thougH iknOw that "pain" will always be part when u love...

As loNG as I cAn still keEP this fEeling I'll hold oN...buT if time coMes you'll tell me 2stop then I'll slowly learn to aCcept it...

Hope u apPreciate my worth of who i really am that is withouT setTing coNditioNS for--- "loving someone should be uncoNditioNal...

"It's truly difFicult to show u or in letTing you knOw that i undEniaBly cAre because of distance and laCk of coMmunicAtioN...that amidst the tranquility of my inNocent yet exploring mind...I'LL never be tireD nOr hesitant 2tell that "i love u" ...

Nevertheless.....it's so pointless for me to be stupid all over and over again...should allow this subconcious mind to evolve and have all the time in this earthly life to correct one's mistake and look forward for what lies ahead....with the foreseen optimistic stoke!=)

I guesS it isn't over.."Hearts Day 2011" wen u finally said that "u still love me" .... :)

and on my 24th birthday we've decided to continue and to put more value on what we've started during college days....

I just hope and pray that this time---

"everything will work out between us through ups and downs" ...."the 2nd time around"....

ilove you my dee-ingsoy!=)

PAUSE!

<< posted on Sunday, November 7,2010 at 2:06am -1 of my notes from my fb account>>


At the break of dawn,here i am...wandering b4 going 2sleep...

No matter what we or will do in our lives we should take time to PAUSE!

In silence,I'm at peaCe and sincerely meDitating...but

With noise,I'm exploring with much excitement...

In life,we may feel insanely rejected or greatly apPreciateD...yet 1thing is 4sure...life is all aBouT making choices and living with it-NO IFs and BUTs!

year 2010 is aBouT 2end and yet I'm still out of nOwhere...

one who is curRently pReocCupied with what or who i really wanteD to be... coNsidEring nOt just short-term buT loNG-term goals in this earthly lifE....

i wanted 2go 2a secret place where there's pampering touch of the coOl breEze wherein i can undEniaBly shouT all my questioNs!pains! and disapPointments! against the ruling mOuntains...

I'm still left unanswereD buT i'll mOve mOuntains 2seEk answerS...=)

GOD bless to all......