..After 5 months we met again with our close friends in college....
I felt the excitement of seeing you yet doubting the real you...
You're always with your mask ; leaving blank images to the people who knew you....
When I saw you with my two very eyes feeling every puff of smoke I began to ask , is that the real you??
I don't want to be judgmental 'coz "smoking doesn't make you less as a person per se" but i wished to see you realize the beauty of staying away from that vice... but it's your choice... that's you....
You've changed a lot same as I do...
Reality strikes me with the wink of an eye that I miss the old you but amazed of the new you- not with your vice but the eagerness to excel with your passion and long-term goals in life....
When we're left alone, I thought that' s the chance of asking unanswered questions but you never tried to ask a single question nor clarification that may pertain that you might care...
I..........
wished to personally say sorry for all the times I also became immature..
wished for you to say personally that you didn't feel same way as I do to directly lessen the pain...
wished to tell you how much hurt that were poured unto me every time you've taken my efforts for granted as if my feelings didn't matter to you ...
wished to slap your face for not being so frank to me but don't have the right to hurt you...
wished to say my feelings for you never ceased as you wished to have it ended...
wished to embrace you and whisper in your ears--THANK YOU 4 being part of my heart that once you were mine,,,
on the contrary, such funny thoughts to remember that we were together only for more than 3 weeks then but what matters is- we've been good friends more than 4 years up to present tested through time....
I guess this solitary feelings might end by saying thank you and I will never regret that you'll always be special...
with the gestures you've shown .. I can feel that we cannot be together,.. you always make me feel that I can't be part of your future plans nor you won't allow me to be there if you need someone to lean on and celebrating your success in life.....
But please don't think that I was never happy for you...
YOU aren't right if you think that I never wished for you to find the woman that will fill your heart with much gladness and contentment that you didn't see nor find in me before till now...
it's just fine I know I will be alright...
it's a matter of time... time will be so fleeting that one day I'll get over you and you'll be happy for me too...
you were wrong when you thought I already gave my heart to mr."E ... ..
you were wrong when you thought that I already gave you up...
but I guess these aren't right to continue if I'll be into one-sided love...
It can be so wrong to fight for something not fighting for,,,
I did my best to let you know how much you mean to me but it wasn't enough for you to stay away as you being numb and insensitive.....
THE ART OF LETTING GO--- will be my answer to never expect for anything in return especially never assume for the things that aren't meant to happen,,,,
this isn't goodbye 'coz I'll always stay as your true friend who will be giving unconditional love,,,,a friend who will be more than a lover ,,,a friend who will always be there supporting you as time goes by ,
If i will see you in the aisle with your special girl I'll be very happy for you; though it might hurt still acceptance is the best way for me to let you go far from my reach,,.
every tear that will fall from my eyes will always be a reminder that loving you is a gift! =)
opening my heart for something new.... for another history of my heart to fall in love is a must; it might not be you in the future,.,..still it will always be you that will remind me that true love is not about happy ending but having and treasuring the gift that once in my past i feel in love--this will be me saying thank you from the future perspective....
thank you for allowing me to love you,,,,
but never pity me please...
'coz one day this will be over i know i can....=)
>>> marj
I felt the excitement of seeing you yet doubting the real you...
You're always with your mask ; leaving blank images to the people who knew you....
When I saw you with my two very eyes feeling every puff of smoke I began to ask , is that the real you??
I don't want to be judgmental 'coz "smoking doesn't make you less as a person per se" but i wished to see you realize the beauty of staying away from that vice... but it's your choice... that's you....
You've changed a lot same as I do...
Reality strikes me with the wink of an eye that I miss the old you but amazed of the new you- not with your vice but the eagerness to excel with your passion and long-term goals in life....
When we're left alone, I thought that' s the chance of asking unanswered questions but you never tried to ask a single question nor clarification that may pertain that you might care...
I..........
wished to personally say sorry for all the times I also became immature..
wished for you to say personally that you didn't feel same way as I do to directly lessen the pain...
wished to tell you how much hurt that were poured unto me every time you've taken my efforts for granted as if my feelings didn't matter to you ...
wished to slap your face for not being so frank to me but don't have the right to hurt you...
wished to say my feelings for you never ceased as you wished to have it ended...
wished to embrace you and whisper in your ears--THANK YOU 4 being part of my heart that once you were mine,,,
on the contrary, such funny thoughts to remember that we were together only for more than 3 weeks then but what matters is- we've been good friends more than 4 years up to present tested through time....
I guess this solitary feelings might end by saying thank you and I will never regret that you'll always be special...
with the gestures you've shown .. I can feel that we cannot be together,.. you always make me feel that I can't be part of your future plans nor you won't allow me to be there if you need someone to lean on and celebrating your success in life.....
But please don't think that I was never happy for you...
YOU aren't right if you think that I never wished for you to find the woman that will fill your heart with much gladness and contentment that you didn't see nor find in me before till now...
it's just fine I know I will be alright...
it's a matter of time... time will be so fleeting that one day I'll get over you and you'll be happy for me too...
you were wrong when you thought I already gave my heart to mr."E ... ..
you were wrong when you thought that I already gave you up...
but I guess these aren't right to continue if I'll be into one-sided love...
It can be so wrong to fight for something not fighting for,,,
I did my best to let you know how much you mean to me but it wasn't enough for you to stay away as you being numb and insensitive.....
THE ART OF LETTING GO--- will be my answer to never expect for anything in return especially never assume for the things that aren't meant to happen,,,,
this isn't goodbye 'coz I'll always stay as your true friend who will be giving unconditional love,,,,a friend who will be more than a lover ,,,a friend who will always be there supporting you as time goes by ,
If i will see you in the aisle with your special girl I'll be very happy for you; though it might hurt still acceptance is the best way for me to let you go far from my reach,,.
every tear that will fall from my eyes will always be a reminder that loving you is a gift! =)
opening my heart for something new.... for another history of my heart to fall in love is a must; it might not be you in the future,.,..still it will always be you that will remind me that true love is not about happy ending but having and treasuring the gift that once in my past i feel in love--this will be me saying thank you from the future perspective....
thank you for allowing me to love you,,,,
but never pity me please...
'coz one day this will be over i know i can....=)
>>> marj
No comments:
Post a Comment